So I have been presented with the awesome opportunity to write on the blog. I must admit that at first thought of doing a post on the blog it was quite daunting. Having read previous posts, I would sit back and think, “Where did these guys come from?” I felt like I was in a different world altogether and felt that I knew nothing at all about youth.

This was when God took me to quite a crucial verse which taught me a lot more about myself and about whom God wants to use. In 1 Corinthians 1, Paul talks about how God’s wisdom is to use the foolish things of this world to shame the wise. Paul relates to the Church in Corinth that he came to them trembling and weak only knowing the knowledge of Christ and preaching only the cross. This made me realize 2 things. 1. I AM FOOLISH – this is not a bad thing, I know nothing which is a good place to be. In the bible Paul relates to us how he boasts in his weakness, as when he is weak he is then strong because God becomes his strength (2 Corinthians 12vs9ff). This is how I view my foolishness, I boast in my foolishness because when I become foolish Christ becomes my wisdom (1 Corinthians 1vs24). 2. We are here as representatives of Christ, if we break this word up it says RE-Present Christ, there is nothing new or old to bring that was not already brought through Jesus, we just need to RE-Present Him and who He is and what He has done.

I can only speak of what I have experienced so I will share some testimony along my learning journey of how God can still use us even when we feel FOOLISH. On our way to youth one Friday, I was feeling down and out for some reason, the week hadn’t gone too well so I felt useless. I turned to my girlfriend, who leads the youth with me, and said “How can God still use me for His glory when I have messed up during the week?” She then told me something that will stay with me for the rest of my life. She said “If God wants His glory to come, He will let His glory come it has nothing to do with you and the way you feel it has everything to do with Him and what He wants to do”. WOW! It is not about my feelings and me but about Him and His grace, to still use me even in my weakness. That night at youth, I said to God I want to see demonstration of Your power so that the youth will stand on You not our wisdom, no wise words just You. One of the girls came to youth but was lying on the floor for most of the night. As I started sharing, I said to her what was wrong, she said she was feeling dizzy and had some headaches, I said well lets pray, she got up we prayed and she was fully healed. Thank You Lord. That is all I could say because I knew it was not me in my foolishness but God using my foolishness by His grace to show His work by His hand of who He is and what He wants to do. Foolish things of this world even me in my thinking I was not good enough. WOW. God blows my mind.

I began to think about all the things the world considers foolish, this made me realize that this is how God will shame the wise in our foolishness. For instance, when someone comes to us and says I have problems with my sinuses, our first reaction is “shame, I think I have some Allergex in my car/bag”. Why is our first reaction not, I serve a God who wants you to be healed, lets pray. When I approached my parents, a while back, on going into full time ministry my dad’s first question was “How will you provide?” my answer was God. The world thinks that is foolish but I serve a God who fed His people, provided them with shelter and water so they could live to do His will. He is the same God then that is now so I know He will provide for me in my foolishness. For instance, not sure how many of you have heard this one so bare with me. One day waiting for a meeting with the Powerful man of God, James Preston , I was sitting at our coffee shop and I was super hungry and had no cash in my account to pay for this. I saw the menu and said Lord I am hungry, so I picked up the menu and ordered. Asked the waitress for the bill. As I was eating I sat there thinking, Lord I am super hungry and as I eat this I have no idea how I will pay. At this point one of the men from our church walks in, we chat for a while and he leaves. I asked if he was meeting anyone for coffee, he said no he was meeting someone in the parking area so I said cheers. As he gets up to leave he picks up my bill and pays for it in FULL. Ha ha. Jesus has already paid for our lives in FULL, He has paid for our provision, He has paid for our wisdom, He has paid for our health everything we could ever need He has paid for in FULL. Thank You, Jesus.

All that I want to leave you with is a song by Delirious called King of fools, I want to walk before the King of fools, and I want to be more foolish each day so that our King can be glorified. In my foolishness/weakness He is made strong.

written by Lee Lubbee